opportunity
possibility
movement
opportunity
possibility
movement
fear
doubt
stagnation
fear
doubt
stagnation
these are the two contrasting cycles that have been playing over and over in my mind these past few weeks. it’s been a big week for me professionally, but even more so emotionally and spiritually. you see one year ago this past week marks the last time i heard my ex-wifes voice. march 4, 2014…one day before the day i proposed to her 10 years ago was the day she asked for a divorce, the last day i ever heard her voice and the last time i ever said “i love you.”
a year later i’m in Paris, France leading a city wide “LOVE take over.” life couldn’t be more bizarre to create this kind of movement in my soul. i stop to reflect and it’s difficult to grasp how all of this change and transformation can occur in one year. hence the reason why the cylce of these two radically contrasting voices have been playing over and over in my mind.
the question is simple, the response not so simple, “do we respond to difficult circumstances in our lives with fear or with opportunity?” i find that fear is a much more natural reaction. when difficulty approaches it’s much more natural to contract, to protect and respond in fear. however, i have discovered this past year that the way of healing, the way of love, the way of abundance is through the doors of another response, the response of opportunity. when difficulty knocks at your door it of course brings a reaction of fear, but that does not mean that has to be your response. when my wife left me, fear poured through my every vein, “i’m not good enough, she doesn’t love me, i didn’t do enough, where did i go wrong??” however, once i sat long enough in meditation, in the silence of God’s presence another voice appeared…the voice of opportunity. this voice said things like, “this is your beginning, love stands wanting to receive you, forgive and be forgiven, love and be loved.” it wasn’t until i allowed the flood of fear to wash over me that love entered in. and it was then when love entered that opportunity presented itself….one ending is another beginning.
and so here i am after one years journey through fear and opportunity that i find myself swept into the arms of a global LOVE story. i still feel the loss, but the LOVE for my ex-wife, my LOVE for the world and my LOVE for God is much stronger than any loss i have experienced. my only explanation for that is that what you feed you become. i exercised my power of choice every day this past year, a power each of us possess…how we choose to respond. and it was through that power of choosing LOVE that my perspective shifted from fear to opportunity therefore creating opportunity out of my difficult circumstance.
i am beyond humbled at how God has met me on the journey of this difficulty and i am forever grateful for that LOVE that now pours ever stronger through my veins.
big love,
Z
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